I spent the entire 2 hours of swimming lessons talking to Kat today and I have been sick to my stomach and heart broken for her since. I'm embarrassed for how I judged her when I knew very little about the situation. Something I pride myself on not doing. I can't handle the injustice of it all. I understand there are two sides to ever story and that the truth is somehow mixed up in both. But to me this is a very black and white situation. Not much gray involved to make it confusing. I don't like feeling like someone was tricked. Expecting a certain life only to find out later the whole thing was a lie and there was no substance there at all. I can't handle people who are lazy. Who play the victim and can't grow up and own their choices. I'm not good at seeing someone who I have viewed as so strong look completely broken and defeated.
There are so many different reasons why I am so angry and hurt by a situation that really in the grand scheme of things has little affect on my life. But I really think that it reflects so much on how my life could have been and deep down I know I need to grow up and own my choice.
9:22 p.m. - 2016-06-06
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