I was watching a documentary on addictions tonight. There was a girl that was an alcoholic but to ease her anxiety she cut. And then she proceeds to take out a knife and cut her arm. I was completely blown away by how horrible it made me feel. I have never been an outsider looking in on this situation so to watch someone do it was terrible. For me it's so normal. Not a big deal. Make a few cuts. Go on with my day. But to see someone else do it gave me a bit of insight into how it may seem to others.
This is a quote from dr Phil (yes, cause he knows everything) on cutting. It made complete sense to me and explains the situation perfectly. It made me feel like I wasn't quite so crazy.
"There is an anxiety storm in your brain. An actual neurological storm in your brain. If you cut yourself that is such a powerful stimulus that it breaks your brain out of that storm. That's why you say the anxiety dissipates. You get a physical pain, a physical sensation that's so powerful it takes over and changes what's going on in your brain. So it feels like relief."
9:32 p.m. - 2016-09-28
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