I am trying to get through/figure out an insane amount of anxiety I am feeling right now. I am panicked. (Not running around like a crazy person) but I have a very bad feeling something is wrong. I have been sitting here trying to talk myself through this and identify what I think the problem is. Or what my issue is.
The only way for me to explaine how I feel right now is that it is the exact same way I felt when I was a teenager and that garage door would go up and mom was getting home and we would be heading over to parent teachers conference. That same fear. That I'm in trouble. That I failed again. That I'm not good enough. I always need to be better. Be better.
Maybe i just feel I'm not meeting up to all that's expected of me. That I'm failing. Tate is out of town for the next 2 weeks hunting. But I don't really feel this has anything to do with the way I feel.
I wonder if it is as simple as my house is a little messy. But instead of cleaning it up I did something for me. When things are out of place I get anxious. But never to this extreme. I just have a very bad feeling.
9:39 p.m. - 2016-09-15
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