I have always been amazingly afraid of spiders. (I think a lot of people are) something about all the legs.... and eyes.... freaks me out. Seeing pictures of them will make my skin all itchy and I will be convinced i have one crawling on me. In 11th grade when I moved rooms down to the basement my dad refused to spray for spiders (that's a whole other story) so I would find 8-10 spiders a day down there and put cups on top of them so they wouldn't go anywhere till my mom would come down and vacuume them up. Most of the time I wouldn't be able to sleep at night because I was so sure they would crawl up and into my bed. It was horrible for me living down there and I eventually moved back up later that same year because of the spiders. Before I agreed to marry Tate he had to swear to me that he would always spray around and inside our houses for spiders because I emotionally could not do what I had to do at my parents house again. (It sounds dramatic, but I was that terrified)
Well ever since I had Emery spiders don't scare me anymore. I am actually very fascinated by them. I google different kinds and look at pictures and videos of them daily. I don't want to hold them and play with them. But I am very content sharing the same living place with them. They don't scare me at all. Which is crazy!
The only thing that changed was me having a baby. I was thinking that maybe hormones control a big part of what are fears are and what we are afraid of. And when our bodies go through such a big change then our fears change as well? I don't know. I just find it very strange.
8:49 p.m. - 2014-02-26
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