The definition of 'insanity' is...doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different outcome.
I'm insane.
I made out with boy #1 today. Smart eh? Bleh. Although most of the time I would disconnect myself so that I couldn't feel. Then if I would slip and feel something I would just keep saying over and over in my mind "remember how he treated you. remember how he treated you. he is just useing you." So with those words running through my head the whole time I managed to keep my emotions under control. So now in the next week or so...WHEN (not 'if') (because it always happenes) he becomes a jerk again I won't get hurt.
I think he thinks that he is going to be able to talk me into having sex again. Which is NOT the case. Gahh! Sometimes I amaze myself on how stupid I am. He doesn't even like me.
3:56 p.m. - Mar. 10, 04
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