So, I'm going to Shane's rodeo tonight. yippy. not. I really should just make animal rights posters and march around with them protesting while he's bull riding. ha. Mandy would kill me.
Today me and Jake had a 2 hour talk. Well he mostly talked. I just shook my head in confusion most of the time. Someone told him that I went on a date with Nathan-1 on the Saturday after I got my tonsils out. (Which I didn't) He asked me to come to a party at his house, but I was too sick. (I wish I could have gone) But who told Jake this? (he won't tell me) and why is it any of anyones business? Bleh. I hate people like that. I don't know why Jake's even talking to me anyways. I don't know why I'M talking to him. He still wants me to meet his parents. Grrrrah!
So today I got to school 1/2 hour before English. I look in my room and Nathan-1 is the only one in there. I wasn't going to go in, but I was like "Amy, stop being stupid and go in." Then Nathan-2 came around the cornor and I smiled and said 'hi.' He was like "Do you have your english book?" I was like "Yeah, did you not do your homework?" He shook his head 'no' and we both laughed. He asked to borrow mine and I said yes. So we went into the classroom and it was just me, Nathan-1 and Nathan-2 for like 20 minutes till the rest of the class came. How amazing did that work out? I really like Nathan-1 cause he's so funny and makes me laugh like non-stop. He is cute too. But he sorta has a girlfriend. Like they are in the "dating other people stage." But maybe if I could just kinda wedge my way in there I could get her out of the picture. :) (just kiddin....I think) But Nathan-2 is tall and he is cute and sweet. I don't know. I'm SURE nothing will happen with either one of them. But a girl can dream right?
Now I really don't know what to do about boy #1. He is now back to the "I feel so bad for how I acted before. I wish I could take it back and do it different." How many times have I heard that before? Hum...The sad thing is I can't even count all the times he's said things like that. But then he ALWAYS went back to being the same jerk to me he was before. *sigh* I wish I could believe him. I want to believe him. But I don't. I wish I could understand why he can't just be nice to me. Why is that SO hard for him? Maybe this time he really has changed. But I wouldn't bet my heart on it. It's weird/STUPID that I still have some feelings for him after all this time. But those feelings have to be kept very secret. And tucked VERY deep down.
5:13 p.m. - Mar. 05. 04
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