Issues. I have so many of them it's almost sad.
So I have this thing for my neighbor. (I'm going to have to delete this before I die and someone else could read this) I have been so confused by this attraction, but finally figured out today what it is.
First of all he is in his mid to upper 40s. Kind of strong... but a little bit over weight. (I know. I know.)
He is retired from the Army. And I think from that he is very... (not sure what the word is) ... strict... in charge.... dominating... and I guess I am amazingly attracted to that. I hate being told what to do, but I crave someone being in charge of me. Makes sense huh? I crave someone strong. (I don't mean muscles, just their presence) Someone confident. That knows what they want, and gets it. I think I am turned on by fear. By strength. By being wanted. Realistically I don't even think it's him I'm attracted to. Just what he represents.
Everyone has weird things like this right? I sometimes wonder if it is realistic for humans to mate for life. For someone to really get everything they need from one person. Especially when one of them is so normal and the other is so amazingly messed up.
11:32 p.m. - 2014-01-11
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