i love how a guy can make you feel like shit for not having sex with him.
i love how a guy can let you drive home at 3 in the morning and not even care to walk you to your car or see if you make it home safe.
i love how a guy says 'don't worry, no means no'. but wont stop till you push his hand away several times.
i love how a guy can tell you your 'hot' and 'sexy' but never tells you your 'pretty.'
i love how a guy thinks that if he takes off his shirt then you should have to take yours off too.
i love how you can spend 2 hours with a guy and he doesn't ask one question to get to know you because he is too busy trying to figure how to get your clothes off.
* i am so upset and i shouldn't be because i have delt with this all my life. i just want to find something different so bad. i want someone to want to take care of me. not in the financial way, just some one to love me as a person and not care about sex. i am so tired of that being all i'm good for. i want to be worth something. i want to matter. god i want to matter! i am so alone. sometimes it hurts worse than i think my body can handle. maybe it's not the guys. maybe its me. maybe this is what i deserve and i just need to get used it it.
i refuse to except that.
3:56 a.m. - January 19, 2008
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