I don't know why i'm writing in here again. I don't know why I stopped. Everything is just so messed up right now. The rules of life are always changing and never stay the same for long. As a result of that i'm always loosing. I don't belong anywhere. Especially church wise. Lately i've just been going to sacrament. I know that's not good but I can't make myself go to the rest cause I don't fit in anywhere. Not at my homeward. Not at my singles ward. I don't know what to do, where to go. I'm just counting down the seconds that everyone goes to bed so I can cut. I haven't done it for like almost 5 weeks. I've done so good. But I have to tonight. It hurts too bad not to. I'm angry right now, but mostly sad. I'm tired of loosing everything that's important to me. I'm tired of things being the way they are. I'm tired of pretending. Pretending everythings ok. When it's really not. I'm tired of broken promises. And empty words. I'm tired of living. I want to go home
9:48 p.m. - July 20, 04
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